Just coming right out with it: I flunked

[pealeaf]

I ended up not really trying, first thing I did was go get cigarettes this morning. I could have done it, too, just let it go, but I didn't. I think I let my focus for the last week wander elsewhere...I didn't do enough preparation.

Honestly, I read Allen Carr's book and it drove me crazy because I feel like I've heard it all before, except for the part where he encourages you to be positive from the get go. And I could feel that feeling...I just didn't want it enough, or something.

I'm going to try not and overanalyze and see if I can set a new quit date soon. Couple things coming up I'd like to get past (I know I know I could do it without cigs).

At any rate, I wanted to be honest with all of your here about what (didn't) happened. And...I'm sorry. 😞

[robincharlene]

We have all been there many times before and I completely understand.  Just remember every smoke you have, realize it is only until your next quit date which you will make when you are ready physically and mentally.  I have the patch on and I have been thinking about ripping it off and lighting up, we are not perfect so don't beat yourself up !!   I congratulate you for even trying !! 

[freedom1]

It really is a difficult thing to do, so don't be hard on yourself.  When you are ready you will know.  It really does take a strong desire and right mind set to quit.  I am on day 10 and happy that I quit, but can understand how easy it would be to relapse.  I pray that I don't.  I am feeling really good, and I know that you can do it too!

[MNJen]

Here's the good news....you can always try again.   I love this quote:  "I'd rather be an ex-smoker who thinks about cigarettes once in awhile, than be a smoker who thinks about quitting all the time". 

Good luck with your next attempt to quit & remember- it only gets easier as time passes!  

[Yaya2.6.10]

I am a firm believer in the positive self talk.  I tried to never make a negative statement even to the extent of avoiding saying I will not smoke.  An example would be I am making my health better now.  James called himself the happy quitter and I thought he was full of BS, but did it anyway.  Mostly I didn't believe myself for a while, but then the days rolled by and I could do positive affirmations like I've been an EX for a day, a week, etc.  

[pealeaf]

Last night I was so glad to put them down...get rid of everything, but somewhere in my heart I knew this wasn't it, I dont' know how to explain it. I had a hard time finding a quit counter--I was so excited about the quit counter, and its current status (it says OOPS) is pretty much perfect for the situation.

But yes, I can and will try again.

[Connie55]

Never, ever give up Pealeaf. Your life is worth too much not only to you, but to the many people in your life who depend on you. All of us on here have failed before, but we didn;t give up. There will always be another event coming up in your life that worries you enough to not want to add the stress of quitting smoking to it.  But the quit is terrific, it is the continuing to smoke but not wanting to smoke that adds the stress to your life. Keep trying and come here often for encouragement and support. Just the fact that your are here tells me you will win this.

[Mike.n.Atlanta]

You will not have flunked until you quit trying Pea. So I guess I'm going to be the hard ass here. You told everyone yesterday that you were going to fail. There is so much negativity in your blog that it was inevitable. Know that you can do this Pea. We're all here as examples of yes we can. We may fall tomorrow but today we are smoke free. Don't worry about staying quit for the rest of your life. Worry about staying quit for this moment only. Then...worry about the next one. Put enough of these no's together & soon you will have some serious time under your belt. Like everyone else said, read & educate yourself. There's really nothing to fear as we've all discovered after a week or two. We'll be here if you need us but always come here first before making a decision about smoking again. We're all pullin for ya Pea.

M n @

[hattie]

Hey there

You didn't flunk... you are just putting it off a bit... until you are ready. This is a tough row to hoe. Keep visiting and keep trying... that's what is importanit.

It even helps if you miss one smoke or two a day... you will get there.

We're here for you!!!!!