When I woke up this morning I thought I was going to have a bad day but I am sure that something will be said before the day ends. I have thought of smoking a cigarette only once today and that is pretty good for me. For those who have been keeping track I take 180 miligrams of morphine a day in pill form for my war injured back and left shoulder. The obvious needs to be said but smoking did not make things any better. I haven't been anywhere today but I am in the middlle of making plans of going fishing early in the morning if it is alright with my wife. I don't think there will be a problem as long as I am back before she has to leave for work. I need to keep doing my hobbies without smoking so I can get to the point to where I am not thinking about smoking at all. I am also thinking about getting a decent kite so I can have something else to do with my hands. I forgot to mention that when I got my laptop repaired they were able to get the smoke of my screen and now I can see things so much better and I don't need to have it set on the brightest light settings to see what I am doing. Now if I can figure out how to reduce the other stress factors that are in my life I will be doing alright. I went to class this last Friday and the teacher did not show up. It kind of made me upset because I had some questions that I needed to ask. I had to sit in my truck for awhile in order to get my thoughts right. I did not want to be tempted by driving by a store all because I was a bit upset. I think there are about three or four more classes remaining and I hope that the teacher shows up. I also can't figure out why I am seeing so many other people smoking but at least I can say that is not me smoking. It does get on my nerves when I see them throw their butts out the car window because it is so dry around here where I live and I don't want anything to be catching on fire. When I did have my craving this morning it was because I was wanting a cigar and it took me about ten minutes to talk myself out of it even though I was keeping myself busy. I finally got over it when I got out of the shower this morning. I am still praying for the cravings to stop and I still need to figure out how I can keep those kind of thoughts from coming into my head.
