I just got a phone call from someone close to me. They had great personal news.
Whoa. BAM.
Jealousy!!
Anger!!
Here I thought I was a good person!!
I'm the one who has offered support, direct support and emotional support. I was so wanting this person's track to become parallel to mine.
Now they have received news that leaves me in the dust.
I have some humbling to do.
I'm so ashamed of myself.
Before someone else says it,
I KNOW.
I am pitying myself.
It's dangerous to my quit.
Strong, negative emotion.
"I'm such a bad person I might as well smoke."
aggggggghhhhhhh help
