I signed up for BecomeanEx in June of 2008. I quit July 2, 2008. I fell off the wagon and bought a pack of cigarettes in January 2015. I had many things going on at the time but now it's time to quit again. The first time I quit, I had smoked for 30-31 years. Started when I was 13 and quit when I was 43. In the last two years, I started taking puffs off of friends cigarettes, to bumming a smoke or two or three, to when I purchased my first pack of cigarettes in 7+ years this past January. I understand it's a constant struggle. This morning, I made the conscious decision to quit. I had 4 cigarettes in my pack, they just went up again in the state I live in to $7.11 a pack. I'm not buying a lesser, no name cheaper brand just to smoke. I'm low on funds until payday and refuse to go to my savings account to buy a pack. I'm tired of spending $100 a month on cigarettes. I'm tired of complaining that I have no money. So, this morning I decided the last 4 cigarettes were my last and I wasn't buying anymore. Now It's been 4.5 hours since my last cigarette, It's a little struggle right now. I usually smoke about 10:30 and then have one around 2:00. Then smoke a few on the drive home. Haven't figured out if it's the idea of wanting one or I actually want one. Sometimes I think it's mostly habit. I like to go outside, have a smoke, as it breaks up my day. I should be able to remember what I used to do. It's seems so long ago, but it really isn't. The downside of falling off the wagon is getting back on. I'm afraid the struggle won't be easy this go around. I have patches at home but not sure if I want to try them. I quit the last time without smoking aids. It's just another added expense that I don't want to get into the habit of supporting. Cold turkey is a shock to the body but I did it 8+ years ago. Let's hope I will succeed again. 🙂
