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It's a stressfull time right now. IF I WERE A SMOKER, I'D BE A CHIMNEY!

JonesCarpeDiem
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Hoggie is getting lighter and lighter. 

He was born 2 feet behind my head with his 5 brothers in a little cat tent on a corner chair.

Knowing an animal from it's first breath is a closeness unlike any other because you know it's never been mistreated and you know it's health history.

Hoggie weighed 16 pounds 11 months ago. By this January he was down to 10 1/2 pounds.

      He has some kind of untreatable digestive disease and is down to 7 pounds 8 ounces as of the vets last Saturday. They've run every test and could not tell me exactly what it is. I find it ironic that my digestive system is so damaged and if I didn't get something cut out or burned from my digestive system every 4 months for the past 7 years, I but be in as bad a shape as him. JUST WOW!  I get a both ends double whammy a week from tomorrow.

He's had diarrhea for the past 5 or 6 months and vomits at least every other day. I've taken him to the vet and they've done what they can as you can't replace something that has failed to this extent.

His time is getting close and I'm going to miss him so.

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     He throws himself against my chest at bedtime to  spoon and has been my constant companion going on 16 years.

    My dad came by about 10 and wanted to drive  by the beach but I told him I needed to give Hoggie 10 minutes outside before we left. We were sitting in the patio beneath the deck and Hoggie walked up with something in his mouth.

     My dad says "I think he's got a mouse or something." Then we both realized he's got that BAS***D gopher that's been tearing up the backyard hanging from his mouth.

That may have been his last hunt,

BUT IT WAS A GOOD ONE.

 

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Hello, My name is Dale. I was quit 18 months before joining this site and had participated on another site during that time. I learned a lot there and brought it with me. I joined this site the first week of August 2008. I didn't pressure myself to quit. HOW I QUIT I didn't count, I didn't deny myself to get started. When I considered quitting (at a friends request to influence his brother to quit), I simply told myself to wait a little longer. No denial, nothing painful. After 4 weeks I was down to 5 cigarettes from a pack a day. The strength came from proving to myself, I didn't need to smoke because I normally would have smoked. Simple yes? I bought the patch. I forgot to put one on on the 4th day. I needed it the next day but the following week I forgot two days in a row I put one in my wallet with a promise to myself that I would slap it on and wait an hour rather than smoke. It rode in my wallet my first year.There's nothing keeping any of you from doing this. It doesn't cost a dime. This is about unlearning something you've done for a long time. The nicotine isn't the hard part. Disconnecting from the psychological pull, the memories and connected emotions is. :-) Time is the healer.