IRONY :-( SADNESS - DEVASTATED

[butt-kicker]

Sorry I haven't written back to all my wonderful friends the past couple days.

I just recently found out that one of my sisters has lung cancer. She has cancer of her esophagus and in her lymph nodes as well.

It's ironic because I was feeling so good about my quitting ( she is only 7 years older )

It's sad because my family is so messed up and I was out of the loop for awhile (not by my choice) and I found out from my niece on Facebook!!

I am devastated because I wouldn't wish this on anyone, not even my worst enemy. I am so messed up about what I should do right now. I love my entire family no matter what! I just backed off because that was the only thing for me to do. When I think of them all, I only remember the good times and the good things we all used to do together and it really breaks my heart. I tried to not let all this shit get  to me, but it's true what they say that you can run but you can't hide.

I know that what's going on w/ my sister is not good, is it? She just had some radiation on her lymph nodes today because her face was so swollen she could barely see out of her eyes. She had been having back pain and it turns out that is from cancer too.  My one brother who talks to me all of the time told me what's going on w/ her. I want to call her but I am not sure it would be a good thing right now. Maybe I"ll send her a card or something? I don't know what I should do,,,if things were normal, I'd already be up there by her side. This is so messed up.

Well, thanks for listening. I don't know where my head is right now. I know this is not about me,,,it's about her and the rest of her life.

Hugs 😞

Diane

[TV-Lasttime24-7]

 If it was my sister and we had some sort of falling out  I would not let that stop me from seeing her and giving her all the support she needs.  Love and life first everything else is secondary.  I guess I say this even more so cause we have lost our parents and my brother and sisters are all we have now.  Time is precious that is why we are all giving up our smokes.  Good luck to you family and may god bless you all.

[sara17]

I'm so sorry about that grim prognosis for your sister. I would say just give her a call. What's the worst that could happen? And you wouldn't beat yourself up afterwards because at least you know you tried to reach out. If it were me in her shoes, I would want any kind of support I could get, wherever I could find it, regardless of the past.

Good Luck!

[Carenda]

I will keep you, your sister, and your family in my prayers.

[Debi12]

Diane, I'm so sorry for the sad news you learned about your sister.  Please know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.  I know you are in a place that you are not sure what to do,,,,I think you have to do what your heart tells you you should do.  A card - could lead to a call and then maybe a visit.  Whatever you decide, you know you have many friends here who are here to listen and  support you in any way we can.

[molzep]

Oh no! I'm so sorry for you and your family.  And it is about you as well as the rest of your family. You love her.

Keep it separate - stay proud of your quit.  tuck your pride into your heart and hold it there.  No matter what else is going on, you have an awesome quit!

Hugs - Molly

[bridget5]

I will keep your sister in my prayers and you as well.   Very sad.... You call her - nothing else matters right now.  Life and memories, and HOPE>   be that hope for her...

[patrick-marsh]

so sorry to hear that lost my mom to lung cancer . think mybe a call or card up to you to be the one to start it! just hold on to your quit ! know its hard for you right now so will pray for you and your sis!just rember GOD LOVE YOU!! WISH I HAD THE RIGHT WORDS BUT DONT JUST LOVE YA AND PRAY FOR THE BEST LOVE AND HUGS PAT

[MoeUnfiltered]

Dear Diane,

So sorry to hear this news,  Do what your heart tells you to right now.

Keep your head about your Quit and Lean on us.Praying for both of you. Moe

[ohiosheltielady]

I am so very sorry to hear this!!  I was scrolling through all the blogs this morning to see if anyone from my quit days was on and blogged and here is this sad news about your sister!  I'm so very sorry.

I agree, a card would be the first step in the right direction and then a follow-up phone call or visit would certainly be the next step.  I totally believe in mending fences .... please do send a card today.  There are wonderful cards out there.  You'll find the right one.  You know what else you can do these days?  You can actually send a card with your own words recorded in it.  I haven't done that yet, but I saw them the other day when I was card shopping for my son's birthday card. 

My thoughts are with you and your sister, and again, I'm so very sorry to hear this!

[maynell]

Well, Diane, that news is certainly not good, but so many people today come back from just about every type of cancer, even lung cancer. I am so sorry you are dealing with this. My advice would be to send a card to break the ice maybe? Include your phone number in case she wants to call you. I'll bet she wants to see you. No matter what, though, just know you can find support here. Hang tough and stay well and remember how well you are doing with your quit. 

May

[miriam4]

Oh Diane,  you must be feeling all different kinds of things.  What a kind thing to want to send a card, she will appreciate that.

When you feel comfortable, it would be so nice to visit her, she'll need that.  Sometimes just showing up and being there means so much.  You can be a good friend to her just by listening,even if you don't talk much, your prescence says it all.

Do you feel strong enough to do this at this time? If not now, I'm sure she'll understand.  She has so much on her plate right now.  Maybe you'll be able to offer her a ride to one of her many doctor visits she'll have to go to.

Keeping you and your family in my prayers.