I had three years, behind me, was feeling great! I relapsed a year ago:( Im setting up my quit date tonight. I need that want to quit! I am going to start here. Reading, learning, reading Alan Carr's Book and preparing my mind mentally. My Dr. just prescribed patches for me. My insurance covered them. She said I can also do Chantex with the patches.
I am really addicted, my lungs are full of mucos and I feel like I might die any moment. I am scared. Scared and still smoking. I watched my Stepfather spoke till the day he died. I see that happening to me and Im scared.
I have been through so many horrible things in my life in the last three years. It has not been easy. I just found out that I have toxic MOLD in my house again.
This is the 2nd house I lived in with MOLD. The house before this one has severe Toxic MOLD. Now I have been getting sicker and sicker again.
My sister inspected the houses and found hidden mold. The landlord has lied and tried to cover it up. There are still high levels of mold in my house. I tried to go stay with friends for a few weeks and find somewhere to move. It is difficult as I am on Sect 8, rents are astronomical and I have conpanion animals.
So much stress Im under and some major legal battles ahead with this MOLD problem. I am thinking the only way to get through them is to quit. I dont think I will be alive to do all of things things if I am dead.
So my major worry is What am I going to do under all of this Stress besides reach for a cigarette. If I get that down to something else I can do than I think I might make it this time again. I will make it this time again. I have done it before. I need to get my head in the right place and soon before it is too late.
