Don’t know what happened out of know where it just hit me the cravings and curiosity playing with my mind this week. I’m fighting it And the only thing keeping me from walking in and buying some is the thought of having to start over again. The disappointment would be to much. And yes I’m outside of a place where I could just walk in and get some and this feeling would go away. Why am I doing this I won’t go inside. I won’t because May 8th is still my day! I won’t because Its a trap! I won’t for my kids! I won’t for myself! I won’t today. Thanks It helps to write my mind is clear for now thanks so much for listening