I don't know what I was thinking. I haven't checked in here for a while. I suppose I thought I was over it, and since, "oh, I already quit, I won't need any more help" I let my guard down. And you guessed it- I SLIPPED. I am so angry at myself. It was all the classic triggers. I was out at a bar, surrounded by lots of people smoking, feeling a little insecure, and I didn't think. I smoked. And I feel terrible about it. It caused a tremendous arguement with my boyfriend, who has been my quitting smoking champion all along, and I feel like a world-class fool. How could I be so foolish as to think that I've conquered this? I've been too lazy to visit this site, and justified my laziness with over-confidence.
I really wish I had read the site that day. Then I would have recognized the triggers, I would have known that all I had to do was leave. Why the heck didn't I think of leaving? ARG! I'm so mad at myself.
Lesson learned. I'll be around here more, folks. Thanks for the continuing support.
