I don't remember anyone mentioning the "icky 43's" (as in 43rd day). But this is sort of an icky time - impatience, crabbiness and eating anything that holds still long enough for me to do so. I'm also lazy, needing more sleep, having trouble sleeping, etc. etc. etc. And are they real cravings? I walked through someone's stale smoke wake today and thought, "Yuck! I'm glad I don't smell that all the time anymore." And yet, I have those "thoughts" (if you insist that I call them that and not "cravings"). I'd like to say, "May I just say that your stale smoke smell stinks and, by the way, can I bum a cigarette?" It's all very contradictory and confusing and I thought I'd be farther along by now. I am also getting little panic attacks. I didn't have time for the gym today - that would probably have helped. It seems like doing something - anything - long enough to break a sweat just makes me feel better. Oh well. It helps somewhat to just write it down. I probably need to get some sleep.
