Last night was pretty horrible.
At about 9pm I started nodding off at the computer. I play an online game and we were in the middle of something, but my performance was pretty horrible when I found myself sleeping during the important parts. I assumed that as soon as I hit the pillow I'd pass out.
I was wrong.
I was grateful to get off the computer at 10 PM and went to bed. My first day down as a non-smoker... wasn't so bad. As I lay down, I smiled and looked forward to to tomorrow.
Sleep didn't come. Hours passed and still no sleep. My own thoughts hounding me. Tossing and turning thinking about smoking until the wee hours.
My alarm YELLED promptly at 6 AM. Dizzy and tired I dragged myself out of bed and wondered if I'll ever get a good nights sleep again. My brain coming up with the great excuse to smoke so that I may sleep tonight.
I got my kids to the bus, their last day of school, and found myself wondering if I had enough to get another pack. I'd just smoke 1 out in the garage... or maybe just keep the pack out there and just smoke 1 a day... yeah... that'd be okay, right?
I know it's not, but my mind running on no sleep is cranking out a lot of reasons for me to smoke today. It's only my 2nd day. I fear I may break.
