Yep, i am the major screw up, i smoked two cigarettes in three days, not that i needed them, or even wanted them i just did it, and its done, so everyone go ahead and beat me up, cuz i deserve it, my problem is i just wasnt ready, and mindset, yes even under my circumstances, still wasnt ready, guess thats the drug huh? I am very ashamed, i think, not even sure, kinda sad to say goodbye to you all, because i feel i need to, i am gonna delete my page tomorrow after work, i , for some reason have to hear what you guys have to say. I feel like a cigarette now and then aint gonna hurt me, mayble im wrong, who knows, noone. i did buy a pack, and i dont no if i want them or not, i might want another one, or i might not, i know with them there, i will prob want one, i really dont no. I honestly dont no if i will smoke one out of the pack, but the thing is i threw away almost 80 days, and honestly wish i would have failed before now, would have been easier to swallow, i am having a hard time with throwing away all those days, and letting everyone down. My roommate is so discusted with me, even tho she smokes, but its not as bad for her, cuz she has no KNOWN, problems caused from smoking, so that makes it better is guess. I amm sorry, and i thank you guys from the bottom of my heart, Hopefully i will be ready soon, maybe i wont even smoke anymore at all, and i will be back and surprise all of you. You guys keep up the good work. Love you all. Nory