I legitamitely have had the worst day today. Im not going to go into detail, but it's been awful...and I have to admit I got to the point where I took a cigarette, lit it up and had a drag. I only had one drag and then immediately put it out. Im REALLY disappointed with myself but I feel like I was driven to that point and just felt like I couldnt do anything else. Im really tempted to smoke the last of it, but I CANT. I cant allow myself to smoke anymore. I shouldn't have even allowed myself that one drag...I just wasnt thinking clearly...I was so stressed out. Im still stressed out...Im in like a damn panic right now. And I feel so awful that I let myself smoke ANYTHING. I dont even know what I was thinking...Im so horribly disappointed. Im just...Idk. I really need some support right now..
