I write something because I want it to stick in my mind. So today is October 23rd and I'm almost at a week. A few weak moments, but all in all - not bad. Haven't hit a real stressor that would shoot me over the edge - but know it is waiting for me. It doesn't take much so I have to figure out my alternative to smoking. In the past week I've been painting - looks like something a 2nd time around 1st grader would do, but I'm sticking with it anyway. I am also hand quilting a baby blanket - even though there's not a baby in sight. I guess one will come along once I get it finished. I have to have something to do with my hands. I stay away from alcohol when I'm alone - because what goes better with a glass of cheap wine that a half pack of Marlboro Lites? My brother is wearing the patch and makes the devil look like a calm individual compared to him. I'm just trying to stay away from trouble so I don't end up back on my porch steps smoking and drinking and regretting my sorry state of affairs.
