This would be so much easier if I wasn t raising these kids by myself... geez what the hell. i just spent 4 hours at the ER with the kids, getting meds for my poison oak that I ve had for three months! Finally I had a nurse freind educate me on how to clean everything so I dont keep giving it back to myself. I ve been through 4 perscriptions of steroids and a shot in the last 8 weeks and I am fed up with this shit like nobody will ever know! I just can t catch a brake unless I am at work. If I could work all the time I would believe u me. I am trying to learn other ways to direct my stress other then smoking. I ve been walking alot but I have to try to keep my son in the stroller and he likes to throw himself on the ground every 10 mins. So the exercising is not relaxing because I have to bring him everywhere I go. Life has been unfair to me but I dont have to smoke over it. The smoking doesn t solve any problem for me or my kids. I just have to learn to try new things and remeber to go to any lengths to not smoke. Super frustrated! I hope I can sleep tonight.
