Well. 3 years, therapy, and over a dozen journals later... I think I'm finally done. I've unravelled all the emotional reasons (and no, they weren't all just simple excuses) behind my smoking. I have 3 left in the pack.
And I can FEEL - I WANT - them gone. It's not premature, anymore. It's not just wishful thinking... the compelling reasons I had for smoking have been shredded into nothing. That still leaves all the NORMAL excuses, justifications, and silly thinking...
But, then, I've been studying the physical, neurological & psychological tricks that nicotine plays on me, right along with ridding myself of those compelling reasons all these years. All the CBT and behavior modification in the world were completely useless for me, until removing the underlying emotional REASONS, I smoked.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh; feels good.
