I'm still here!!!!!

[danirn784]

This week has been crazy and now that it's the weekend, I finally feel I have a little time to relax and catch up.  Last night I had my very first dream about smoking.  I think it happened because I was talking to a few friends about it and they said I didn't seem to have a problem with the addiction anymore.  I told them it was no longer a daily struggle but I could in no way let my guard down because I know things can pop up now when you least expect them!  In my dream, I was talking a walk with a friend who smokes occasionally and thought to myself "It's almost been 3 weeks, I can surely just have one puff."  So I asked, and he gave it to me.  I woke up thinking "NOOOOOO!!!!!!  I can't believe I did that!"  Thankfully, a couple seconds later, I realized it was just a dream!!!  But I'm back on guard now because I know the nicodemon wants me to think that it's ok because I've gone this long.  NOT OKAY and not gonna happen either!  My life is so much better when I am in control, not the cigarettes!!!!