I'm back

[susanj]

and I'm going to do this again. I quit then started back - just the same old endless cycle. I am embarassed and ashamed that I smoke and I can't seem to shake it. No one smokes anymore and NC is putting a ban on all smoking in restaurants/bars come January. There are endless commercials on tv about not smoking. I am a closet smoker - sitting on my back steps, alone, drinking coffee or alcohol - contemplating the world - all the really crappy stuff that makes me feel bad. Mostly now it is the shame of being a smoker/ex smoker/smoker off and on again. I've once more made the committment, but will this be like all the other times?

[rebecca14]

IT'S OKAY!!!!!!!!!! Really, don't beat yourself up! You have made the commitment, now all you have to do it try to stick with it! If you have a smoke, don't beat yourself up, just recommit! A friend of mine quit and he grabs a lifesavers candy when he wants to smoke. I think that's a pretty neat metaphor. It keeps you from smoking thus its a "LIFESAVER". KD Listen I know you can do this! And this community is so super special and we are here to give you the support you need!!!!! You can message me on here anytime if you just need someone to chat with! GOOD LUCK!!!!!

[Carenda]

Halloween Costume

[Brenda_M]

Hi again! You can do this. You already know some coping strategies. You just have to use them. You did really good the first time you were here. Keep it up!

[barbara-wilson]

I'm starting over today after another relapse. I know you and I can do this!

[edith2]

Hey, I'm glad that you're back! Start looking for solutions instead of wallowing in your troubles. Alcohol will solve nothing. Take charge of your life and get your sexy back! I like listening to music that gets me motivated like Sly and the Family Stone, Earth, Wind, and Fire, and AC/DC always gets me fired up and ready to face the day! Get back into your quit!

[patricia6]

It is about naming what I DO WANT! What I want is to be free of addiction and to feel my feelings and do what is needed to feel worthwhile and to be proud of how I spent my time and my money! It becomes a priveledge to suffer the withdrawl because in the end once I wrestle the addiction and the echos of the addiction out of my head I smell good, I breathe free air, I am doing things every day with my time that are worth my attention and one day I will feel good because I just feel good all by myself! BE the ex! Just do that and there you are on your way and you are so not alone

[onedayatatime2]

I can relate.  sitting on the back steps, a glass of wine, a cig and the phone.  I see myself differently now.  Sitting in my nice warm house spending time reading, with my child, and not smoking.  If I focus on that better chances it will become reality.