Hi all,
June 22nd 2011 I smoked my last cigarette. 10 years and a lot has obviously changed in that time. I was just a young mom raising 3 kids, in a bad marriage and nothing to my name. 2011 was the year that forever changed the course of my life. Quiting smoking literally ended my marriage. When we stopped smoking together outside we stopped communicating. Instead I found confidence and realized how strong I was. I became a runner and went back to school. I grew so much!
Yesterday I came back here to read my blog because this place will always mean a lot to me. I need some courage right now. Sadly 2012 was the last year I didn't struggle with dependence on a drug to deal with my emotions. Reading my blog yesterday made me sad. But happy at the same time. I'm now working on day 2 of a new journey... The stress of being a single mom, moving, going to school and my dad dying was too much. I started numbing myself with alcohol. In my blog I had talked about dealing with raw feelings and I stopped doing that. I stopped dealing with stress. My blog helped me remember how positive I once was and that if I can stop smoking I can certainly stop drinking. I may continue to post here or I may not. I'm not so sure. But I do know my journey is not done yet!
Oh and one more thing! I never went to school for Radiology. Instead I became a Registered Respiratory Therapist and work regularly with COPD patients. Funny how life works out like that. I definitely recognized a few names here so please say hi if you remember me and if you are new stick around and change your life!!! Because it is so possible!
