My last cigarette was on Sunday night at 10. So I've made it almost 4 days. I have only two reasons for quitting. 1) because my mom cried when she found out a few months ago that i've been smoking for 6 years, and 2)... a bit more complicated. I was reading "The Night Before Chrismas" to my 5-year-old step-daughter a few weeks ago. When I got to the part about Santa smoking a clay pipe, she informed me that both her daddy (my husband) and her mommy smoked those little white sticks. I was obviously aware of this but had no idea that she knew. I told her that they were adults and could make their own decisions, but that it was very unhealthy. A few days later, she caught me smoking for the first time. Now, my baby's biological mother smokes in front of her all the time, and although my husband (her dad) smokes, he had no idea that she knew anything about cigarettes either.
So, I've quit for the sake of my mom and daughter.
In other words, I don't give a rat's @$$ about the lack of pollution on my own heart.
I've now made it for 4 days.
Problem:
Yesterday, my car broke down. My husband was able to come rescue me. When I asked him why he wasn't busy in the middle of the day, he informed me it was because he'd just been layed off that morning.
We were barely getting child support and groceries covered.
Today, I'm scared and making barely above minimum wage. And I haven't even addressed the greatest of my concerns and stresses, which shall remain confidential.
Should I just break down and have a cigarette? BTW, I'm a Pre-K teacher.
