I finally had the courage to talk to my friends .................
Here I am - asking for help again and hope ya'll won't tear me a to big of an ******* ...
I could write a book and that would not suffice and or excuse my behavior....
I do not want to get to deep into details as of yet, just trying to get my over my angst
TO come back before you with my tail between my leg's...(<--- Doggie style)
I need your help, and I will gladly again take advise from the community!
Please assist...
Below are a few adapted Lyrics - sorta explaining how I feel in my current state of mind,
Dirty.....Sad....Alone....And now I layed out my heart to you - I feel that I am NOT so alone any more...
Hugs PappaSmurf
*I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right (again) right here *
Johnny Cash Lyrics (copied-from *Hurt*)
Nicodemon is here again 😞
Suicidal, ooh, yeah Deep inside my soul I've been praying there's somewhere else For me to go!
Come on, people Ooh, don't you hear my pain? I'm out here in Babylon Waiting for the day!
"Cause I've lived a life of sin And I heard that us sinners Have got a chance with Him"
I'm ready Oh, I ain't *NO freedom train* 'Cause the way that I am headed, yeah There is no thing as pain
Ah, Jesus Sweet Jesus, can't You hear? Please don't leave us on our own Living here with fear
Ooh, I've had a season in hell And I'm getting pretty tired down here Oh, please break the spell
Sweet Jesus, can't You hear? Please don't leave us on our own Living here with fear
Are YOU READY? LYRICS (*Lyrics copied from The United Nations of Sound & RICHARD ASHCROFT*)
!!!Kinda - adapted lyrics to my situation -!!!
The fear is great ...............