I feel like I'm cheating

[MarcieWhosoever]

It's the weirdest thing. I don't understand it.

I keep getting this really strong feeling like I am cheating on this quit. The weirdest part is, I am NOT on any form of nicotine at all for the first time in my smoking life. Even last time I quit I used the patches.

Like I mentioned in my last blog, I bought an e-cig to use in case I needed it during my quit. I have not needed it thank God.

Im completely cold turkey. no patches no e-cig no gum nothing. Im not even sucking on candy or anything.

So why in the heck do I have this feeling like I am cheating on this quit? Maybe because its easier than I thought it would be (at least so far)?

Has anyone felt this? this is just weird.

I guess it really doesnt matter as long as I am NOT cheating. Not smoking.

Please, I do not mean to imply anyone using NRT is cheating ok? Like I said I have it in case I need it. would rather puff away on my e-cig than smoke.  I just mean to say I am not using anything at all so I def shouldnt have this feeling of cheating.

I'll see you at the bonfire tonight. Cant wait!!!! Super glad I quit in time to throw my un-smoked cigs in the fire.

I will gladely watch them burn. 🙂

[JonesCarpeDiem]

what she said with the same warning.

craves may undoubtedly come up.

They are just memories tied to emotions.

You can say I don't do that anymore, nothing can make me smoke except me, and

sidestep right around them with a short term distraction

Remember to come her first and post three times if you feel any problems coming on

[Mothergoose9]

The only one you're cheating is the tobacco companies!!!!  I LOVE it!!!! 🙂

[greg42]

The last time I quit, it was easy for me.  Easier than it had ever been, but I went two weeks worrying and steaming till I gave in and had a cigarette.  I felt terrible about giving in and made up my mind then I was no longer a smoker.  So that does seem to be the difference.  Only that is easier said than done.  Getting to that point and realization is a little more difficult.  After all, how long did it take us to finally quit.  Just glad you found the right frame of mind.  And yet it can still sneak up on us.  You've done great.  Keep up the good work.  Sorry I'm going to miss the bonfire.  

[MarcieWhosoever]

Thanks Peggy and Dale.

You are def right about the mind set. Maybe thats it. It really doesnt matte as long as I dont smoke.

Also, I dont mean to make it seem as if I am breezing right thru this. For anyone just quitting and maybe struggling.

I have said before in a previous blog that I have thought of cigarettes at least a million times since I stopped. But they are just thoughts. Thoughts dont hurt. They are irritating but painless. Cant wait till the thoughts get less and less. But for nowI just try to relax thru them and remind myself that I am in NO physical pain, and that smoking is something I dont do any more.

Ps. I found myself grinning from ear to ear today while driving down the street. I was thinking about being a nonsmoker!

And I dont care if I looked a fool. 🙂

[MarcieWhosoever]

ahhh thanks Connie and Greg too! you must have commented while i was typing.

Cheating the tobacco companies! hahahhaha yes!!! 

[Strudel]

I did have the feeling that things were a lot easier than I ever expected - so perhaps that is it!! I also had a back-up plan - some lozenges - which I never used (and returned for my money back!!). Congrats on your great quit!

[jrai]

Ah; scanned your blog for a sec and when I saw "cheating" and e-cig I thought "Nooooooo ... ah, you were already, *done*, ah, so --"
 

Then I realized that you were just talking about how easy it felt for you.  Haha; I don't think I would call that cheating in any form.  I remember I used to date a girl from Italy back in New York (she smoked, I didn't at the time), and during the first part of our relationship she was reading the Italian translation of Alan Carr's book, each night, before bed.  She said she was doing as the book mentioned -- to smoke all the way through reading it.  But then, at some point I couldn't even identify, she wasn't smoking anymore.  She just ... stopped one day.  And then it was sort of like: "Oh yah, this is my second day" or third, or whatever.  No meltdowns, I didn't even notice.  She said she just dropped the habit once she started reading.  It was odd: I was always curious how a book could cause someone to do that.
 

It sounds like you could be going through the very same thing.  I wouldn't worry, though -- just because it isn't a living nightmare as you expected doesn't mean you're cutting corners in any way.  Nicotine-free is nicotine-free, and self-control and discipline is just that; it is what it is.  Congratulations on your quit so far --

Julean

[empathy]

Count your blessings & stay close to this group please , my friend. You have been given advice frm the best of the best so listen to their words of love. Hugs, Tammy

[ks100207]

I felt it easier my second time too.  I don't know.  It's kind of like falling off a bike.  You get back on and learn what not to do to fall again.  I'm so glad you are doing great!  Don't let your guard down though.  Your still early in your quit and the Nicodemon is very sneaky.  Take care and Not One Puff Ever!

Luv ya' bunches,

Kelly

[laurie37]

Maybe it's because you expected it to be ALOT harder? But you made your committment and made your plan and it's LOTS easier than you expected so that is called AWESOME not CHEATING! 🙂

(((HUGS)))

[kwardklinck2]

It's not so hard once you're sure in your decision.  As soon as you realize that you have nothing to lose and much to gain from quitting, the rest is a cakewalk.  It's not to say that the cravings don't pop up every now and then.  You just have to strengthen your resolve and think N.O.P.E.

[ocd1]

I think was my easiest quit.  I find if I think about what I would have done during this time or that time...I want to smoke.  I totally believe it is all in our mind.  I think the big company wants us to always think about them and they think we will come back to them sooner or later.  Well, I hate to tell them we are not coming back ever again!!