I just spent the last two and a half hours trying to help my aunt with her math homework (were both in college) in her bedroom. Both she and her husband smoke. They had the door closed the entire time I was there and just continued to smoke around me. Its not that im a new ex-smoker that i have sch a problem with.. im PREGNANT... i feel so gross.. i can smell it on my clothes and in my hair.. i dont want to think about what my baby just got into her little system.. its almost midnight and im exhausted, but im going to have to shower before bed. I cant sleep like this. Im REALLY horrified that I used to smell like this all the time less than a year ago. I almost didnt want to sit down on my couch to write this because now my couch will smell like my clothing. I never actually understood what it meant when people said they could smell smoke on their clothing (non smokers that is. im VERY well aware that smokers have a smell) i sure do now though! Maybe its that my lungs have finally improved enough that i can detect it.. maybe its because im pregnant and super sensitive to all sorts of smells but its not a faint odor. I KNOW i smell like smoke. I wonder if my lungs will be sore tomorrow from inhaling all that second hand smoke for such a long time. I hope not. Ill be so mad at myself for letting enough poison in my system to physically damage my respiratory system.
Before you ask, it was WAY too cold to open the windows, and its their house.. maybe it was wrong of me, but I felt bad about asking them to NOT smoke for that long. I AM going to make her come to my house in future if she wants homework help.. or at least ask that we study in the living room. I dont care if its not as quiet... the baby hardly kicked at all while I was there. Shes sure as hell kicking up a storm now though.. I hope thats just coincidence, and not her getting some of the effects of me inhaling the second hand smoke 😞
Its amazing how much just a few months can change. I smoked for 6 years... but now im horrified from just being around it for two and a half hours? Im glad for the opportunity to renew my commitment to a smoke free lifestyle, but geeze.. i hate having to face the lesson. Stay smoke free guys- cigarettes are just plain NASTY.
