I dont even know

[mherman1011]

Third attempt....stupid computer...deep breath

Im not even sure what to say right now on my blog... I just feel like thats what I should be doing in the state of mind I currently am in. Would like to do the alternative, but N.O.P.E! I am strong... bare with me please..

Today was a rough day for me. Very emotional, with lots of ups and downs. I am feeling lonely, and bored. I might go to bed early tonight in fact..but umm..

I am sorry. I am not usually negative like this, I try to be positive and cheery and smiles.. but that's hard to do right now and I hope I dont bring anyone down with this! I just needed a moment to vent, say something... send hugs my way please! Could use them

[SmokedOut041412]

(((Hugs)))

It's ok---it's hard at times, life is hard at times. You are doing the right thing by coming here and venting.

N.O.P.E.

More (((Hugs)))

[rizza]

Go ahead Vent!

[mherman1011]

 I just hate sounding so negative, that's not who I am! Although it does feel good to get it all out.. and thanks for the hugs!

[rizza]

You know, it i s okay and very normal to feel negative, and or blue sometimes. IT is healthy. No one is always all cheery and all smiles, that is not possible, and probably unhealthy.. 

So you go ahead and vent and feel however you want to feel. It is called being human. 🙂 

[sherry102]

DON'T SMOKE ............... YOU are doing GREAT ..................  I AM TRYING TO QUIT IN THE NEXT COUPLE OF DAYS IF NOT SOONER .................Beleive me you are doing a good thing .....you are where I want to be , but I have to work on that .........it will be OKAY ....KEEP STRONG & KEEP SMILING 🙂

[joyeuxencore]

Hello sweet friend!

You must always be totally honest about where you are at! Bravo...Did you write blogs and it all disappeared???!!!

Hahahahaha...SORRY...Wow do I remember climbing the darn walls over that a couple times! That happened to all of us in early quit and it is a frustrating thing for sure...

KUDOS to you because you blogged anyway! Best to compose your blog in a word processing program and copy & paste...you can spell check and get your thoughts together with no fear of losing it all...

The ‘bored’ thing is not really bored believe it or not...It is just a strange unfamiliar 'emptiness' that is actually because your brain chemistry is so accustomed to the dopamine release from nicotine that for a period of time you ‘think’ (because it’s your brain after all) that you are ‘bored’…it is merely a chemical adjustment process…Never the less you want to find lovely ways to get through it…

I learned to post pictures on blogs and message boards (I have never gotten over the rush of finding the perfect thing!)

I also spent a lot of time on youtube watching funny videos or inspiring vocalists…

It takes time to re-learn life without cigarettes ie: addiction…all of a sudden there is this void and you don’t know how to fill it but eventually you discover that ‘void’ is the place your heart’s desires are…even if you don’t know what they are yet! xo

[joyeuxencore]

[mherman1011]

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU everyone, this is exactly what I needed! Friends, people to bounce things off, people to talk to that can relate...

I am taking deep breaths, keep checking back on here, I am actually watching the show Ridiculousness on MTV and laughing my ass off which seems to help! Feels good to laugh, even if I am by myself.

I remember the whole word processing tip from earlier when we talked! But in my state of mind I ran to here right away, didnt even think about it. Im not sure what happened, my computer just froze and said not responding so I had to ctrl alt del it and start over. You would think that after the first time I would go to Word right? Guess I didnt learn even after the second time, and luckily the third time it posted. Oh well, my fault..

Just thanks again! It means a lot to me that even strangers are better friends than the friends that I consider to be my friends.. if that makes sense? haha

[SmokedOut041412]

So glad you're LYAO!  🙂

Whew.

♥

[kitty31]

hugs and prayers i send your way hang in there girl

[paulaquit_8-23-13]

It makes a lot of sense because this site is overflowing with people who have experienced what you are feeling and who have come out on the other side!  It's a great place to run to for help and ecouragement!  Great job coming here and looking for support!  You are doing awesome...keep going!

[Susie49]

Every-one has helped me so much and I am  so glad that i am not the only one that needs and has recieved sooo much support.  Am so happy for us,,and for  those that seem to always be there for us.......Susie

[mherman1011]

Absolutely, I couldnt agree more! Everyone on here is amazing and super supportive, I honestly dont think I would have made it this far without them... hate to say it but just being honest.

[Magstoyou]

Keep Blogging and reaching out to the site. I really needed someone one day and I was amazed of the response of people on this site. I am a newbe also. You will learn some thing new every time you read the blogs. Keep going forward-Huggs

Mag

[Mandolinrain]

Your doing EXactly what you should do...you came here:) We are behind you.Hugs and more hugs:) This 2 shall pass:)