I don't know if any of you will find this helpful, maybe if your brain is just as twisted as mine lol. Anyway I've been without smoking for approximately 14 days now since April 6th. I caught a bad stomach virus (didn't eat for 3 days so I definetly wasn't smoking) Anyway the virus lasted for a total of 5 days and I realized that I hadn't smoked one cigarette nor was I in the mood for one. By the way I normally smoke between 8-13 cigarettes each day at a minimum more when I drink and gamble.
On the fifth day I realized that I hadn't had the urge to smoke and I also got through the 3 days physical withdrawal period which I though gave me a boost in stopping. The reason I am not saying quitting and I am sure many of you agree, Even though we KNOW what we are doing is UNHEALTHY we still WANT to SMOKE. We don't want to "QUIT" I know and I'm honest with myself in saying so. I like smoking, I like lighting up after a good steak or nice five course meal or have a cigarette when having a drink outside during the summertime etc. These were moments I really like. But I know that in the long run these little things are going to end up killing me eventually (unless I am one of those 3% that can go through my entire life and my body is immune to cancer, heart disease and whatever else smoking has been linked to)
So I made the decision to STOP. Not Quit but just stop. I am not taking the quitters mentality I am just stopping because I don't want to quit and also the word QUIT is a negative word mostly associated with failure or unappreciated or other negative expressions words (just in my opinion people I don't want a debate) so I am choosing the word stop (like stop sign) a word that can be used without the atmosphere of negativity. Anyway here I am 14 days no smokes and I've been near plenty of people including co-workers and friends who smoke with it blowing in my face and me watching them enjoy every little puff but I stood strong. The worst was when one of my coworkers asked if I wanted one after she just lit up and blew smoke in my face .... I was like ummmm ye... I haven't had one in 8 days so I'm going to say no.
I don't know why Im writing all this but I feel that this method I've taken is really working for me and there might be other people who feel that same way I do. Also I don't think about smoking.....at all. You see when your a smoker or atleast when I was a smoker I would always be thinking when will I smoke next 1:15? 3:00? At the next road stop I'll pull over etc. Not anymore I don't think about it at all I don't allow it to enter my focus or field of concentration.
Well theres my story anyone that can relate feel free to comment ... and anyone that thinks I'm a little wacky, I am so congratulations to all those that have stopped and best of luck. Also I'm going to try the e-cigs just to see what it's about because when I drink I get really bad urges to smoke but thats it. (Actually stopped most of my drinking which made my wife super happy lol)
