On Sunday life's pressures really got to me, and I really felt so far away from God, trouble at home and my one dog had an operation. And also the weight gain is freaking me out. I used to smoke for comfort now I eat for comfort. I went out and bought two cigarettes hoping to get some comfort again while smoking them. I lit one cigarette but as I sucked in the fowl smoke it was as if something hit me square in the chest, the pain was incredible and i coughed. In those few seconds I experienced the most incredible disgusting feeling I have ever had in my entire life. Smoking is not a normal thing to do in anybody's life. I obviously squashed the cigarette out immediately and crushed them into the dustbin. I realised that I cant smoke even though I tried to. I just didnt want to feel that pain again in my chest and the taste in my mouth and the smell of smoke. I have been smoke free for about 106 days, and don't consider this to be a relapse as I didn't smoke again after that one puff. I know God helped me quit in the first place and he is not about to allow me to take up smoking again.
Brenda ex smoker 106 days