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I could use an excuse.

JACKIE1-25-15
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My 93 year old daddy is driving me close to crazy.  Not an opition to smoke.

Doing everything I can to make him feel at home.  Nothing seems to be the right thing. Not an option to smoke.  Road all over town to find thermals that have not been put out in all of the stores yet.  Complained about me spending money.  Mine not his.  SINAO I am learning at 93 years old you know everything there is nothing anyone can do or say to change your mind.  Lets discuss Depend underwear wrong size even though they are the exact replacement.  The only thing that i can do to make him happy is food., Ice cream neopolitan. Bought home is favorite navy beans and corn bread he pretended he did not want it.  Tonight when the microwave keeps going off because he can not get it right. He will be trying to heat those beans.  He is a  Night owl up all night long.  He has recently given me persmission to wake him up during the day.  I said to go for a walk? he says no for a ride.  It takes 4 hrs to do an 30 minute errand I kept asking for patience I haven' gotten it yet. . I wouln't say my attitude is really  bad but after a couple of nights lost of sleep my disposition isn't that great.  Wants me to take him to his house that is condemned. Not suppose to be there. Loses focus on why we are there.  Have to go through hollering match to get him out  and threatening to leave him. I finally tell him my heart is beating fast and then we can go.  I guess he does not want me to die.  Everybody says he is at the right place with me. Supposely we are alike.  I guess they could not handle all the drama that comes with a very independent irony opinionated 93 year old male chauvanist.  Anyway at least two times today I had to tell myself that smoking is not an option.  I lost a quit 2014 over a disagreement with him.  Steam coming out of my ears and nose and I went directly pass go and bought a pack.  I resolve that no matter how often we bump heads smoking is not an option 
Good night my friends. I think the ice cream put him to sleep SINAO.​

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Lay aside every weight that may be slowing you down. Make up your mind not to allow doubt cause you to stumble. You can do this! Do not allow fear , False Expectations Appearing Real to hold you down. You can do this! Break the chains of addiction, forgive yourself for ever smoking. move forward and start loving yourself more each day by staying smokefree. Put aside worry, anxiety, depression, any EXcuse that you would use to not get in or stay in the race of freedom. Take one day at a time, one step if necessary. Run the race diligently, steady and sure with endurance. Believe that you can. Keep your eye on the prize. Hang tough, stay close, be mindful, never give in, never give up.