I choose to start over again

[sheilalam]

Today is my Day 10 of being smoke-free.
Looking back the passing days, breath is easier than the past, skin tone looks better, too. But my mind is in such a mess, can't concentrate, feeling blue......eat too much junk foods, can't stand of any tiny little bad things happened. Then I bought a pack tonight......lighted 7 cigs..............I really hate myself for doing this.
But I set out to make a clear cut with it now, cuz after the comsumption of that 7 cigs, nothing turned to a better situration, it doesn't help or constructive to my life at all.
I'll be good, please give me support~

[Sylvia_Deitz]

Well, Hon, I guess you proved to yourself that smoking doesn't better any situation. When the bad things happen, you just think smoking will make it all better....that it's the ultimate band-aid, but as you've proven to yourself in those 10 days, you didn't really need to smoke to get through the hard times. You managed to make it through and you didn't die. As we say on here a lot....quitting won't kill you, but smoking will, so I'm so happy that you're choosing not to smoke. Thos e 7 that you smoked, well, they probably will reenact the old cravings again, but you just have to get through them as you did before. I know you can do it!

[victoria-gomez]

i guess we're in the same boat only at least you went 10-days before you gave inn, i was on my 2nd! you were doing great!! and just cause you gave in doesn't mean its the end of the road and you must smoke the rest of the pack! I know you want too! lol But No!!! throw those nasty, good for nothing things away!!! we can do it!! We must have FAITH! I'll pray for you to find strength, "for US,to find strength"

[maria9]

There is no question that you can do this, you have to stop giving the smokes power and you have to claim it back. It's not easy, I remember when I was where you are and I remember it very clearly, I'm at 392 days now, some where easy days and some where hell, but I can honestly tell you that it is well worth it, you'll see. Stay strong.

[edith2]

As you know now, life still happens after we quit, and we just learn how to deal with it without doing harm to ourselves.

[kristi4]

It sounds like you were depressed from smoking?? During my entire 2nd week I was SOOO depressed. I have never felt like such a loser all my life. It actually has to do with chemistry in ur brain, but I looked at it as the Nicodemon pulling out all the stops. I took Vit. B12 and 5-HTP(it is something to help with "happy" centers in the brain) If u cant use these, just have the little voice in the back of ur head, saying, "this too shall pass.." The 3rd week for me, was where life truly truly got easier. You could also sleep off the depression ( I did).I have never had such a multiple array's of emotions in all my life. One minute crying, angry, depressed. It all passes! Please do not get down on urself. Pick urself up, and dont let a slip turn into a relapse. You have not lost, if u have not given up. Keep fighting. Remember the demon will try ANYTHING! Cuss at him, tell him to F off! Getting mad at Philip Morris helped me alot too:) YOU CAN DO IT!! If u need additional support from me, plz send me a message, I will be happy to help u out. Hey, lets get to the point of no return, where the grass is greener on the other side. What do we have to lose? Lets go there and see what it's like.

[cris3]

You have my support. I did the same thing after 50 and as Edith said, life still happens after we quit. I felt blue as well and ate us out of house and home. I found solace in writing journals (as many times per day as needed) & blogging. Good luck this time.