I cheated. :-((

[diane39]

Friday night I was home having a couple of beers while I watched the Stanley Cup Hockey playoffs (go Hawks!).  Enter "evil" thought.  Long story short, I took a quick ride to the store (2 blocks away) and bought a pack.  Smoked 4.  It was absolutely discusting. Okay, done.  Then tonight (Sunday) same "evil" thought and I did it again!  WTH??? I'm a dumbass. So anywho, I cannot do this, it is discustng and I am chasing some sort of feeling of that elusive wonderful cigarette that is an illusion.  I'm gonna be back a LOT again cause I'm not doing this.  Much much much hugs to Mary, Doris and Patrick who always keep in touch with me.  You guys are the best and I need ya now!!  Thanks so much. XOXO, Diane. (for all of you that don't know me, my quit was 1/7/10 and this is my first (and only damn it!) set back.)

[hwc]

That sucks.

[topher10]

Well Diane, That does suck! Get up, dust yourself off and get back on the Quit Wagon.... and the next time "evil" thought enters, pick up a Pop-sickle or whatever, just have a plan.... You can do it.

[Breakinchains]

     You lost your quit over a hockey game? Turn off the TV.

[sfaoro]

It's got a positive side. Goes to show that even after that long a time, it's easy to get get back on the drugs.  Guess you have a new quit date.

[Bonnie11.3.2009]

You're right, smoking is disgusting!  Not evil, addicting!  And you are an addict.  That means not even one.  Ever. 

[mindy15]

We can never have one..next time blog...get support before it happens..Be on gaurd when drinking is involved..

[Yaya2.6.10]

You've gotta stop thinking of cigs as a reward or not smoking as a sacrifice.  Make a list of all the positive changes in your life since January and then make a list of the positive changes since Friday when you smoked. 

[diane39]

Thanks to all of you. 

[auntdee]

Hi Diane, i am so proud for you....dusting yourself off and getting back up like this.  You are one, determined quitter, girlfriend !!   ....Just for today, i will not smoke.    Love you tons...Doris

[auntdee]

PS.  Diane, thank you, so much, for sharing your story, here.  That small thought that a cigarette would be good, comes back to me once in a while.  Even though i talk myself through and know it is a lie, it is good to hear you say it's a lie.  Love you, hon....Doris

[diane39]

Thanks so much Doris. XOXO

[brenda61]

NOPE

BUT IF YOU DO REMEMBER IF AT FIRST YOU DON'T SUCCEED QUIT AGAIN

I have a son that lives just Northwest of you in Mundelein Illinois. I sure miss him. Have a great day.

[brenda61]

NOPE

BUT IF YOU DO REMEMBER IF AT FIRST YOU DON'T SUCCEED QUIT AGAIN

I have a son that lives just Northwest of you in Mundelein Illinois. I sure miss him. Have a great day.

[diane39]

Thanks Brenda.   I immediately did.

[patrick-marsh]

hey dont be to hard on yourself we have to watch out for that old junkie! its in us and wants that fix!1

now lets move on and get back to on your quit!! know you can do it!! and no more tv lol  stay strong and ! know you have to watch it!

i did 8 mo 2years ago then went back to it! but now dont want it but still get some cravings! not as strong!

know you can do it! my friend!! hugs pat

[diane39]

Awww, thanks Pat.  How are you feeling?  I hope this finds you better. 

And, yes, I think it was the MIller Lite, not the TV. LOL  (it also makes me think I dance better, sing better and that everyone is my best friend. They ought to put that warning on the label. LOL) 😉 Hugs, Diane

[Debi12]

Diane, so glad you are here and getting right back with your quit!!  You can do it!! 

[diane39]

Ah Teresa, that little alcohol devil.  I'm glad you jumped back on the wagon too. Thanks so much for sharing. It's always nice to know you're not alone in an endeavor. 🙂

Thanks for th words of encouragement Debi! 🙂