Each day I would feel guilty for smoking. I would start each day with a smoke. I would smoke before doing anything for myself or anyone else (unless you count letting the dog outside with me so she could go to the bathroom). It was the first thing I did in the morning and the last thing I did at night. I have not done anything to replace these moments and each morning I feel as if I am forgetting something when I leave for work. I think I will use these moments for reflection. I was thinking of reciting the Serenity Prayer or maybe making a small list of things/people to be grateful for. This past week I have not used these times wisely. I have slept longer in the mornings, which has made me right on time or 5-10 minutes late. At night I crawl into bed and toss and turn and watch movies until I am able to fall asleep. I know that I need to change my behavior to more relaxing practices or else I'm going to feel as if I need to smoke "to relax" even though I now know it doesn't help you relax.
