to go over all the reasons I have wanted to smoke so desperately. However, i have made a commitment to myself and my daughter. I won't do it! I have to learn to be grateful for the good things right now.
I really just want to roll up in a ball in bed and never leave. I am a mom though , so that is not an option! That is a selfish option and not one I am will to make. You know things could always be worse. I will get through this... but the question is... will I be alone (with the exception of my daughter). The other question I have been searching for within myself is... do I want to be alone? How will I do it?
Life is a mystery, I am not sure why these things keep happening to me. I think I am missing the bigger picture. Maybe I need to just put a bit more thought into it.
Smoke free for almost 14 days!
Sorry if I am not that social on here. I just yeah
