Begining of day 8. Begining of week 2. I am feeling better today. This upper respitory problem I have been having is starting to calm down. It's nice to be able to take a deep breath. It also makes me aware that if I keep smoking, that will eventually be my life, not being able to breathe. That is all the motivation I need to stay with this journey of being a non-smoker. I want to be able to exercise. With this bout of asthma I have been experiencing, just walking to my car was exhausting. I want to be around for my kids. I don't want to have them take care of me, because I insist on smoking and ruining my health. I just want to enjoy life, and smoking will make that impossible for me to do, if I continue it. There are so many things that will be ruined for me, if I continue to smoke, and I know it will eventually kill me. So now my journey to better health begns. The next thing on my list is to lose weight. I am going to tackle one problem at a time. I think I will begin the weight loss by just increasing my activity, and cutting back on my sugar intake. Not smoking will make moving more, a lot easier.
I am still using the nicotine patch. I will continue this for a while longer. At least I am not inhaling smoke and further damaging my lungs. I know I wil need to start weaning off of these eventually, but I am not going to rush it. I don't want to go back to smoking, so I will take my time with this.
I feel like I have been someone else the past year. For those of you that don't know. I was an ex-smoker for 20 plus years, and in a stressful time in my life last year, I started smoking again. It has been a little over a year of smoking again for me. I know now, I can never touch another cigarette. I am an addict. I almost feel like it's a self hate. It is self destruction. I have decided to love myself. I am going to take care of this body, if only for the pleasure of feeling good, and being able to do things I want to do unhindered by health problems. I know there are no garauntees that I will always be healthy, but why should I contribute to be unhealthy by smoking? I need to do the best I can to maintain and improve my health. I want to be the healthy me again. I think I am on my way.
Peace to all of you. Have a wonderful day!
