Dear Nic
It is with great joy that I write this letter to tell you that I'm not coming back. The trial separation over the last 57 days has opened my eyes to just how one-sided our relationship has been.
I will not lie and say that I haven't thought about you every day, since we were last together, but I am missing you less and less and beginning to resent you more and more.
It's been awhile since we've touched and I've held you, I can remember how you smell and taste, but it doesn't bring the memories I thought It would. I thought I was in love with you....I thought I needed you, but now when I think about you, I only think about the deceit, the lies,the hurt and the disease. I think about all the years of my life that I gave you, and all you ever did was take. How you wasted my time, took me away from my family, how others knew, how they tried to tell me, how I believed you above all. How wrong I was, but how well you lied.
So Nic, I have new friends now,friends that have taught me that I can stand on my own, that I have the strength to live without you. I don't need you anymore. If fact I don't want you in my life anymore.
Now that I've finally gotten you out of my system, I have a choice. And I exercise that choice with pride and reverence, I never want to take my freedom for granted. So like the song says:
Go, walk out the door
Just turn around now
Cause you're not welcome anymore....
I WILL SURVIVE !
