Ok. This is my first blog - I figured I would give it a shot!! I woke up this morning after having the strangest dreams last night - they were ALL over the place!! I thought it was kind of cool; I really can't remember the last time I actually had a dream. I'm trying NOT to be my typical self and over-analyze ever dream I remember - I think I'll just let it be whatever it is.
After I got up this morning, I followed my normal routine - starting with my coffee!!! And OMG!!!!! I know my coffee has always smelled good - but this morning it REALLY smelled good. And I have had to start making it a little weaker than usual (not as high octane) - I can actually taste it!!!!!
Then, as I was getting ready for work I found myself singing an old song loudly (and I CAN'T sing well)!!!! "I WILL SURVIVE"!!!!! Without smoking that is!!!!!! Anyway, it is very sappy but I was thinking about the lyrics and found that for me some of them apply to me quitting (becoming an EX)!!
I WILL SURVIVE
First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me
Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive
It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me
I'm still a work in progress - but I definitely like the part saying "Now I hold my head up high and you see me - somebody new - I'M NOT THAT CHAINED UP LITTLE PERSON STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU"!!!
I have rambled on enough and not without some embarrassment on my part!!! Maybe all these chemicals leaving my body are affecting my social skills.....LOL!!!! Hope everyone is having a GREAT day NOT SMOKING!!!
