I WANT A DO OVER

[mustangsally3]

I would like very much to extend my deepest apologies for how I have been coming across to many on here.

I need a do over, if you guys can forgive me I am asking for forgiveness. Even though I have been on this emotional roller coaster for some time now. I am stopping the coaster and letting all of you off so I can finish this ride by myself, there is no point in taking you along when you never asked to go on this particular ride.

I do however love to write so I wanted to see if anyone would be interested in being a pen-pal with me or just send me a topic and your address and I can creatively wite you up something that may move or inspire you that you can keep for nostalgia purposes, looking back when my books hit the best selling list you can amile and say I know her, she's my friend and she wrote this for me, it was personalized just for me.

You can do this to show others how special I think you all are by me doing a random act of kindness for you in an attempt to pull myself to a better place indeed, and like my quit, become successful in doing so. If not that is fine too...(Please let me know)

Please forgive me and let me have my do over so I can try and turn things around, because I am only human, and I am supposed to make mistakes as we all have. I appreciate ALL of you! Thanks for at the very least reading my babblings.

I am going to try again, one step, one minute, one hour, one day at a time, good, bad or indifferent, I am going to keep on trying until I succeed! 

[cookie804]

please do not leave, we all have bad days and rant and rave.

[elvan]

No apology necessary, no offense taken.

[linda258]

Hello,  you might want to look into non smoking groups.  This gives you "real" one on one contact with people.  When I first started to quit I joined one at the local hospital.  Unlike internet sites you get to meet and have immediate feedback from the group.  Just a suggestion.

[annb]

Please feel free to write me here via PM Carolyn. I think you should keep blogging but you do what feels best for you! We are all on this roller coaster. Dale put up a funny graphic not long ago of people riding one. We just all help each other hang on as much as possible but unfortunately can't do it "for" each other!!! Sometimes we do jump on and off but we'll keep the light on for you!!!

[MarilynH]

Stay strong, hang in there we all want the best for you. 

Marilyn

[JonesCarpeDiem]

[YoungAtHeart]

All of us who have quit have taken that roller coaster ride Dale posts!  We understand your ramblings and your need to write them. If someone doesn't want to read them, they can simply skip to the next one.

That said, feel free to pm me here on the site.  I want to help any way I can.

Nancy

[kshields59]

Please don't leave, we have become such good friends, talking on the phone etc. I know where you are coming from, I too have been there. I , along with others here, are here to help you. Just keep hanging in there, think of your children, your family, but most important, yourself. Stay on the site, like I said, we are here, We are family.

Kelly

[bob170]

Carolyn, as others have said please don't leave, I read all the blog posts when I get home everyday,I look forward to yours and others as well. I don't respond often because I have trouble expressing my self in written form, or it's hours later. I guess what I'm trying to say is you help more than you give yourself credit for.

thanks

[lois2]

Don't never quit quiting you can do this stay on the site we can help.

[Brenda_M]

Hey, of course I will pen pal with you! I pen pal with everyone! 😃 I am working on your letter tonight. I think I can have it in the mail early next week!!!

[Strudel]

The important thing is to always protect your quit! And - to stick around here! Keep blogging! Congrats to you!

[pir8fan]

There is a thing here that is known as the rule of 90-9-1! 90% of people who join this site never come back! 9% read here! A lot! But never become active! They read, and take what they can use to help them quit! But they never say a word! 1% of the people who join here become active! The exchange messages with each other! They share what I call "Collateral Kindness"! "Helping themselves by helping others! What a way to quit! What a way to live!"

It is nice to have those contacts! But those are not the only people that are helped by your missives! First of all they help you! What you will never know is how many people in the 9% group you are helping! I can however, assure you that there is no greater feeling than opening a private message from someone who does not post on the site, and reading that something you wrote has changed thier life for the better!

You just keep posting you thoughts, and sharing the success of your quit! At the end of the day, protecting your quit is priority one! If you save someone elses life along the way, well, that is just frosting on the cake of happiness! 

Tommy

[Newfound_Joy]

Flutterbye, please DO NOT take your new name figuratively. Carolyn, we do not want you to just flutterbye.  What we really want is to hear from you.  The best help that you can get is to post blogs for the entire community to have a chance to respond to.  Please,  you DO NOT need a DO OVER.  Do you know how many times in my beginning quit days, I whined and complained and wanted people's sympathy and once I outright threw a tempertantrum in a blog??!!  Everyone here had patience with me because they all have been there and knew what I was going through.  These are called WITHDRAWALS and we ALL have to go through them to get to the other side.  Besides that, if you go back later and read your old blogs, you can find them comical and realize how far you have come in your QUIT and lessons learned.

This is my humble opinion, take what you like and leave the rest.  We are here for you anyway you choose to carry on with learning about your tools to put into your tool box.  Blog here, blog there, get a partner, whatever it is YOU KNOW you need to do for yourself.  Due to my own health conditions and OVERWORK load, I'm sorry to say that I cannot be a consistent partner.  I blog whenever I can.

So now..................YOU DECIDE!  (You are doing fantastic!) 

[newlife5]

forgive you for what... being human? i will not... thats what makes us all unique... love you

[newlife5]

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