I am still strong in my quit, but boy has it been tested. Seems that not all of the emotions I was feeling was do to my quit.. Imagine that. Went to my doctor a couple of weeks ago and discussed my feeling out of sorts and my urges were stronger then when I had started. She thought it may be do to me being so terrible at taking night time medication. The Wellbutrin (generic version) I was on is a twice a day pill. I had really only been taking it once a day. So she switched me to the time release. New pill, new experience, I was on an emotional roller coaster. I would cry over the simpliest of issues, and a couple of times bawled. I stopped taking it and a couple days later became the level headed person I know I am. Seems I was experiencing side effects with these medications.
So, if you don’t’ feel right, talk to your doctor.
The good news is even with all those emotions, almost getting in trouble at work because of it (I have never been one that holds my tongue well), and my family at a loss as to what to do.. I DIDN’T SMOKE!! Yes, that’s right friends, those emotions are one of my biggest triggers.. yet I DID NOT SMOKE!
Although I still have those urges, those dam moments when I reach for something that isn’t there… I will overcome these, and those to come.. I subjected my body to these dam things for 32 years, it will take a while to not reach for em and that's ok.
My mantra is simple: It’s my quit, don’t mess with it or me.. I can be a bigger bitch then any nicodemon out there.
Sharrie One month, two weeks, five days, 14 hours, 8 minutes and 12 seconds. 1517 cigarettes not smoked, saving $307.33. Life saved: 5 days, 6 hours, 25 minutes.
