I AM going to do this!

[durkinthequitter]

Day Three. New patch. Drove about 45 miles in the car yesterday and almost went crazy. Made sure I had water, some straws cut in half, dum-dum lollipops, and some gum. I made it. But I feel like that guy on the commercial being attacked by the shark and all he can think about is "cigarette, cigarette". Was sick to my stomach yesterday; that passed. My partner is being very supportive, Thank God. I know if I can just make it through this first week, I can do it. In 30 years, I have not gone 24 hours without a cigarette! So, I'm winning already. I've decided that when I have a craving at home, I'm going to do crunches. I should be really skinny and firm in a few days, lol.

Up a few times during the night, and out of bed at 4:30 AM. This is okay. I've prepared for this for 2 months. Cleaned the kitchen and cooked some edemame for a nice bean salad for later. I'm going to type out my list of reasons for quitting and post a copy on every floor of the house. I'm really struggling. I will probably nap today - at least when I sleep I'm not obsessed.  When does this awfulness go away? God Help Me.