Well I have been smoke free for over a month and tonight I smoked 5 cigarettes. I got some bad news that sent me right to the store and I bought a pack and sat in my car and smoked and thought about what I was going to do about the situation. After I smoked I felt sick, and then felt like I let myself and my kids down and then I threw away the rest of the pack, came home and took a shower. I am not going to beat myself up about this and I am not going to keep using these stupid excuses to keep slipping...