Honesty

[jessie39]

I slipped up on Friday night.  I just wanted to and I did.  I was out for a party with work friends having drinks and thats it.  I wasnt strong enough and I guess It was all I could think about and gave in.  What I am happy about is that I woke up in the morning and did not smoke.  

I woke up in the morning and went right into my non-smoking routine, working out and protein shake.  Same as today.  i love my healthy lifestyle and do not want to give it up.  I have to just learn how to deal with this stupid want and desire to smoke especially in social settings.  I have no excuses and I own this slip up.  

I love this site and because I have stil have lots to learn here, I came on and was honest and needed the support.  

keep going or reset clock?

[hwc]

The clock is not the issue. The issue is that smoking just one cigarette (or however many you smoked on Friday) almost always (like more than 90% of the time) leads to becoming a full time smoker, smoking all day, every day, unable to quit. 

To quit smoking, you cannot smoke. Not once every 24 hours. Not once every 24 days. Not once every 24 weeks. Not once every 24 months. Not once every every 24 years. 

This is the single most important fact about quitting smoking. Really, it's the only fact that you have to know.

The Lucky Ones Get Hooked

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g8XvSiHmlQ8

Important video to watch.

[LesleyON]

I'm sorry you slipped, I've done it too.  But getting right back on track is important-don't linger:)  Sounds like you got up and didn't smoke so you can be mad at yourself for the slip up but you'll be much more angry with yourself if you keep on smoking. Sounds like you really want to be free from cigarettes.  When I slipped I had a few puffs, and threw out the pack. I was not going to let it own me again and start smoking a few a day, then 10 a day then a pack a day-we know how it works. It doesn't take much to get right back in the groove of smoking.  You can do it and you'll get so much support here.  Smoking really does nothing good for you-not one thing. And what does staying smoke free do for you?  The list is a mile long!  Good luck and stay strong!

[Eric_L.]

Imo id reset it if for nothing else than to be able to remember the day that u had the thinking that led to the first one.  But in r3ality this shit is one day at a time so your either gonna smoke today or not.  If u r tripping give yourself permission to smoke tomorrow. But guess what? 2m never comes bc its always today.  So just nope today and u got it

But id take a deep look at what led u to first one.  Pride? Entitlement? People pleasing? Fear?  If we admit as addicts that we have warped thinking than we have to cast out thatstuff or we will use again.  Its not willpower. Its willingness to do something, different.  Stop trying to control stuff and try somethin diff.

[bonniebee]

Sorry you did it, it was a choice and now you choose to stop it and that is a great choice !After i slipped one time I went a very long time smoking again ! You are wise to reset your date and continue with .....NOPE !

Congrats for your honesty with us and yourself May God  give you the strength to continue onward and upward !

[Storm.3.1.14]

RESET your clock. Just as you decided to smoke with determination, you must now decide to re-quit with honesty.

[smorgy8513]

Thanks for your honesty with us.

Resetting your clock is about honesty to yourself.

Never...Never....Never

that's why we rely on NOPE, NEF!

Sharon

[linda258]

Honest... If you want to smoke... and you do... you are not quit.  Re-set clock. 

If you really want a healthy life ... don't smoke.  Glad you are not smoking now.  Be careful .. thinking you can smoke when you want to and not smoke the morning after is a myth. 

Congrats on getting right back on the horse!

[jessie39]

I reset my clock and I know that  i am not and cannot be a casual smoker. I smoked a few cigarettes because I haven't let go of the joy I had with it.  But what made me not buy a pack and continue smoking was my love of how good I feel when I am not smoking.  

Thank you for all the support.  I am taking it one day at a time still and today i now day 3.  

[hwc]

[quote]I haven't let go of the joy I had with it. [/quote]

I found that that, after smoking all day, every day, for 35 years, there was definitely no joy in smoking.

The notion that there is any joy in smoking is a junkie lie. The only joy from smoking is the fact that it relieves the drug withdrawal craving caused by smoking the last cigarette. 

Once you understand this trap, it's perfectly obvious that the only way to enjoy permanent joy like that is to stop smoking. Once you stop taking the drug for a few weeks, you no longer feel drug withdrawal and therefore no longer need nicotine to experience the joy of relieving drug withdrawal.

All of the triggers (social settings, smoking when drinking, etc.) are real, but they are just ornaments on the Christmas tree. The tree (the drug addiction) is the fundamental issue.

A critical point: As long you believe that you got joy from smoking, you will believe you are giving up something. You need to brainwash yourself out of the years of nicotine junkie and tobacco company brainwashing that made you believe you got joy out of inhaling the smoke from burning leaves....

[Storm.3.1.14]

So very proud of you for resetting, Jessie! Trust me, there is far more honor and motivation in keeping a quit clock true and honest than there is in fighting to keep a broken clock taped together. And don't you deserve to be proud of a fresh start?

I think so.

[elvan]

Proud of you for resetting your clock and even prouder of you for realizing how much better you feel as a nonsmoker.  Good job!

Hang in there and maybe avoid those social situations for a while, I had to and then when I had my first one, I was fine, nervous but fine.  Oh, I chose not to drink until I reached a year and then I waited a few more months.  Alcohol is a quit killer.

[jessie39]

I know there is no joy in smoking cigs really, as nothing good comes from it.  I know that.  I guess for me, I was out with friends having drinks and it was a time where I liked to smoke.  So no there really isnt any joy.  I gave in to the desire to smoke.  

Today I am not smoking.  I didnt smoke the day after and I am not using any NRT at this time  Day one with out help however, I have it with me at all times in case I need it.