Today was just awful. Not even sure what happened. I feel like I'm back on day 2-3-4 and I'm back in withdrawal on all fronts. Constant thoughts of smoking, trying ride the craves but they seemed nonstop today. My brain hijacked all the positives I thought I had worked through. Spent most of day feeling like i'll never get past this constant desire to smoke.
I need attitude adjustment help big time. It's as if in one day I fell into Allan Carr's "willpower" trap. I was sullen, I was nasty, Felt like I couldn't enjoy anything just because I "can't smoke" even though the beach is probably my favorite place to be. I'm tired and hoping for relief. Will try to regroup tomorrow but I'm still not sure how today ended up being such a jumble of wrong way feelings and attitudes.
Totally exhausted from fighting constant thoughts and urges....The strength of this addiction/habit is frightening.
Anyone with this experience of an all out assault out of nowhere - please send reinforcements!
mdmd
