Day one...
I am 25 years old, and have smoked at least a pack a day for the last 8 years minus a few brief periods where I haven't been able to make it stick. I'm serious about it this time. And honestly that terrifies me.
I'm a sober drug addict and alcoholic. I will have 6 years clean this December. That was a tough enough road. But kicking this nicotine habit has proven much more difficult. The thought of staying sober for the rest of my life no longer scares me, but thinking of never smoking a cigarette again surely does. I'm trying to remain focused on the positive, however.
Some of the things I turn my thoughts to when I get a craving:
I'm going to save approximately 160 dollars a month.
I'll have more energy and be able to work out.
I won't have to choose between always carrying perfume with me or smelling like smoke anymore.
No more sneaking around the office to get a smoke break.
No more checking the clock to see if it's been long enough to take a smoke break.
I won't be embarassed when people get into my car.
My sheets, towels, and clothes won't perpetually stink.
And the most important one of all: I will one day be free from these constant and obsessive thoughts which literally control every aspect of my life.
And ultimately, when remembering those things don't help, praying for my higher power to remove the obsession from me and taking it one day, one hour, or one minute at a time always does.
