Uncertainty>>>>> We all have times of it.
Heck, I used to smoke the most in uneasy, uncertain times.
But, "I don't do that anymore."
The shots I got in my rear 10 days in a row didn't destroy the bacteria in my system. They've now colonized and aren't going anywhere.
I've heard two different trains of thought on this and I don't like either one.
I have no idea if this bacteria is treatable or hastening my end.
It's a scary place to be because before last year, I just coasted along expecting the best.
So many things haven't been resolved. We lost my stepmon 10 days or so before Christmas, my health, my teeth, my daughter's health..
Dads moving to a really nice place Wednesday. His wife owned the property in the retirement community and it was undetermined as to how long he could live there. They will be sorting what's in her trust for a year. This location is the nicest and closest place to us and there was an opening. He falls alot and, at 96, shouldn't be alone for that reason.
His new place is only 2 miles further away than the 2 miles he is now so it will be easy to see him often. He's looking forward to it. It's a very nice place and he paid for this for 20 + years. It has everything he'll need and new friends to make.
I can't see the ending to my story but, before I got so sick, I never even imagined an end.
Smoking fixes nothing. I never believed it did.
I was strictly in it for the nicotine.
On another note, It took me a full year after I bought a much needed mattress to move everything into another location in order to take out the old mattress and place the new one. I just haven't had the strength this past year.
My one beautiful blessing has been Hoggie. He had a really rough time the 4 months I was in the hospitals and nursing homes. He looked like an unkempt feral cat when I got back. He'd lost a lot of weight and his fur had matting that I could not untangle. Every once in a while I could grab him and shave one or two off or yank at them but I couldn't clear them
Well, he took it upon himself to untangle every last one of them. He looks real good now and I have pride in that he did it.
He's looking good and I'm not smoking. Could anything be better?
YES!
Keep your quits. Sometimes it's all that we have.
