I had way too much to drink on Saturday night. There was a party for my co-worker at our office...someone made sure my glass was never empty. I think I may have blacked out because I don't remember large chunks of the evening. Thank God my boyfriend kept an eye on me and insisted I drink 3 big glasses of water before bed. I woke up with my head in a cloud of shame.
My dad was an alcoholic. Boozing was never my thing. Until this past summer, I never had a drink to relax or to purposely change my emotional state.
Maybe this is my midlife crisis.
So this week is health week. No booze and no pot. My liver can probably use the break. I am going to start working out again today and putting my focus back on food and health.
But on the bright side....64 days quit smoking today!!! Not smoking has been relatively easy, I don't even think about it anymore. It's feeling all my feelings that has been difficult. I am making a lot of changes in my life, the first one learning to be gentle with myself and make room for my emotions. The toughest thing has been determining what I really want or need in many situations. In the past, there was no room for "me".
