Having a REALLY Terrible Time...

[eady36]

I am having a terrible day.  Last night my urges were so crazy, I felt like I was light headed dizzy, sick, I went out and got a 2 gallon thing of ice cream and could not wait to get home and have a bowl, had I not done that I would have smoked.  Today is no better.  I feel terrible, been sleeping terrible.  And have gotten some tragic news this morning and some other not so great news.  All I want to do is run out and get cigatrettes.  I WANT to smoke/! I know its not going to make anything better, I KNOW that...but every part of me is screaming to smoke.  I know i don't want to feel these terrible emotions.  mHave been crying on and off all morniong, I look like a monster.  Glad I can isolate so I don't need to see anyone.  This f'ing sucks today and yesterday.  Figures in my world this shit would get harder as days go by and NOT easier.  Going back to couch, under blanket, and hope I can make it.........

[megsaquitter]

Oh man, it's really hitting you hard today, hey?

You're absolutely right - smoking will NOT make any of this better. If you smoke, you will feel like a failure. It will only make things worse.

I promise this will pass. There's no "hoping." You are TOTALLY going to make it.

You can totally go back to the couch, bundle up, eat a gallon of that ice cream, blog all day - do whatever you need to do, but DON'T SMOKE!!

[mary-lou]

I truly no what you are going through I have been there I thought those cravings would never end, the nightmares, not sleeping and just wanting to smoke. This site helps so much. Have you tried the patches or the lozenges to help with the cravings.  You are doing so good at least you bought ice cream instead of cigarettes, the ice cream was probably cheaper also.  I feel your pain please please!!!!! hang in there the worst is almost over.  Protect that quit

[tomthetool]

YOU CAN DO IT!!! Don't smoke- 11 days is AWESOME! Don't blow it- you'll feel like total sh@#$ if you smoke! You'll get a major head-rush and puke in your ice cream!!!

[johnbotkins]

I had a hard time yesterday because I put myself in a bad place but I had to make up my mind ((( do I really want to smoke ???? )))  Why, hell NO I dont so I did things... The best think that I can tell you is that your not (( ALONE )) We are here to going through the same thing you are maybe in different ways but we all think we know how to make it all better ((( SMOKE )))... Or I should say that is how I 've done my whole life but now I have to change everything about ME and the thinking part is the hardest, I am seeing... I'm sorry for the bad news you got but don't let it get you down because that is not a good place to be or its not for me..... Call someone you can talk to about what is going on..... Get it out don't hold it in or I will smoke over it, because I have and that ended my last quit in Oct 2011.. I have 2 ahalf day's done so I know the HELL your going through with the cravings...  BLOG BLOG BLOG it helps I know........................

NOPE

John

[Thomas3.20.2010]

"Many of Life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to SUCCESS when they gave up!"    - Thomas A. Edision

[Bonnie11.3.2009]

When you've made the decision to be an EX smoker, then the question becomes, What do I do instead.  Waste no more time, energy, passion, angst on the other.  You just don't do that anymore.

Now, what are you doing to nurture yourself?  Are you getting educated enough so you understand the process?  Good for you for blogging and getting the ice cream! 

There are plenty of ways to learn to cope with life on life's terms and we're here for you!  Keep blogging and letting us know how you're doing.

[Todd24]

You can do this.  Like the others said.  Jump back in Bed and Cover up your head.  You know if you have a smoke, physically your going to feel worse.  in 10 minutes after the nicotine high wears off your mentally going to feel worse, because in addition to the issues your trying to deal with, you also let yourself down. 

Your feeling better and better everyday.  I know this, because remember Im only 30 minutes ahead of you. 

Now Would you like Whip Cream and a Cherry with that ice cream?  🙂

[Lonita]

You know you don't want to smoke. Seriously you just want that demon, craving, withdrawls to go away. They are putting up a battle that they don't want to lose. You are winning!! I am proud that you are hanging in there. There is nothing wrong with you having the cover over your head. I kinda like that idea. You know you are getting stronger everyday. Your lungs, throat, and your heart are healing.  Before you go lay down maybe take a shower, brush your teeth, read a book, or watch your favorite movie. Popcorn sounds good too. Thank you for not smoking. 

[tigtazpooh]

hey,i havent quit yet but i know what you mean,i had argument with my new man,had bad visit(no explanation there) with something,came home and it was bitter colkd,my check hasnt made it here,i cant move into my place until i get my money,i am living wiht 21yr old son who doesnt smoke and i have to go outside and obey his rules even though i am the momma,so i know what you,r going threw,but i had plan pnce i got over being upset and had few smokes,i gave pack to son told him to hide it till he got back and now have no other choice then to make this pack i got wed last till he comes home tonight cause he hid both packs,i do have few from previous pack but i am trying to wait as long as i do befor i go freeze for a stupid smoke

[sweetmelissa12]

"Keep telling yourself it will get better (it will). You will reach a point where you do not crave cigarettes anymore if you commit to giving it up."

Stay healthy!

I feel your struggle