And I am breathing and life is getting better and different and I know I can do this the rest of my life because I am not hurting myself with cigs now. I still want to hurt myself on occasion with sugar or certain foods or not exercising but that I can manage with honesty and self love over time. And maybe there is more time to live - wow now I can admit I do not want to die and hurt myself ---- rode with my friend to work today and she smokes in her car and by the time I got there I was sniffing out the window and she doesn't smoke when I am in the car - but I love her and hope I can be there for her when she is ready to quit. I am just another person, and I am no better than those out there smoking I just don't stink and my lungs may be healing and I have less anxiety and am grateful today I logged in here and remembered how many months (dang - months) I have without smoking. I am done. And I thank you all here and I thank this site for being here and helping me through those first few weeks - Awesome!
