Yep, I flubbed. My girlfriend was cooped up at my apartment all weekend, sick as a dog, and of course I took care of my sugardumplinghoneymuffin, but this was also the first weekend I would have had to myself in a long time. Ya know, some me-time. My me-time is absolutely essential to maintaining my chill, and ergo essential to keeping away from the shmokey-shmokes.
So when I got a break to take a run to Target (pronounced Tarjay, of course), I pulled out the leftover pack in my trunk and took a couple of puffs.
See, even in previous quit times, I've occasionally taken one out during a craving to remind myself of how bad it makes me feel. After having quit for a while, when I have a smoke, my throat gets ucky and my mouth gets dry and the taste is just plain awful. And it honestly does help. It reminds me how gross it is, how much it makes me feel like crap, physically. And I can't even finish it and I toss it away, ready to stay away from it for even longer.
So, what, do I reset my counter? Have I gone back to zero? I don't think so because it doesn't set me back-- it makes me want to have one even less. I really really just did not like it.
What's the consensus on this? Anyone else ever have a couple of puffs when their lungs are clear to remind the body and mind of the grossness?
(And if you're wondering why I have a pack in my trunk-- I went to the Virgin Mobile Music Festival this month, and easy beer money comes from those poor souls who offer a dollar for a smoke.)