Thank-you EVERYONE for all of your replies to my previous blog. Wow day 20 can't even BELEIVE that myself but really glad I'm climbing that ladder! Haven't been on due to my depression now I am put on a cancellation list for my counselor as she is on vacation on and off. But strangely yesterday I completely snapped out of the horrible depression I was in. It felt great and not sure how I did it I started doing things that I love to do when not depressed I'm working on finishing this beautiful bird painting..almost done than on to horses for my daughter. Also I played games and it felt really good to laugh!! When I was depressed it drags me down so bad that staying in bed is actually physically hurting me, have I thought about smoking yes a lot! And strangely I guess not all good things last, maybe it's me who knows!!!!! But this morning I had a talk to my fiance or boyfriend would you call him that it would be nice if you texted me good morning sometimes because it makes me feel good and he's done it before than stopped, it was a simple question I said it nicely and he walked away as furious as I was I wrote him..here's a good morning message for you in hopes that your day is as wonderful as you, your the last person I thought of before I went to sleep, and the first person I thought of when I wake I love you Tyler more than words can say...that's what I sent him and he put his wall up and made some damn excuse like I don't know when your going to wake up..yet he's texted me before..damn it's like we had a great day yesterday...and now it goes down the drain AGAIN! STORY OF MY LIFE
