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Going on 1 Year and 80 days smoke free

vicky_k
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Good Afternoon All, 

I have not blogged for a long time, but I have been pledging daily not to smoke.   Today I am going on one year and 80 days of being smoke free.   Feels great!   

I am still working in the job that I started last year.  It pays the bills.   Now we are dealing with mice issues in my dad's house rentals.   I have already communicated with my younger sister that she needs to declutter her apartment in order for the Exterminator to come to our house and plug up the holes in the apartment and in the basement.   This is getting to be biggest headache ever since it is very difficult to get rid of the mice if my younger sister's apartment is the Grand Central of harboring mice in her apartment.   She does not clean up her apartment at all, and it will be difficult to plug up the holes in the apartment.   I research that the mice can get into the house/apartment with a dime size hole.   That is why my older sister and I wanted to sale the house next year.   I am extremely tired of taking care of my dad's rental.  Every time when there is something wrong with the house, I am always the person who take care of things.  This time around, I informed my older sister, that she will need to take care of this problem.   Last year, I was the person who hired the contractors to renovated the 1st and 3rd floor apartment.   

Right now, my younger sister is not really talking to my older sister and I, since we informed my younger sister, Peggy and gave her a year notice that we will be selling the house next year.   I felt bad for her that she is going through a separation from her husband, but at the same time, she is taking advantage of us by paying very little rent for the house which belongs to the 3 of us.    She is not even filing for divorce with her husband since he left her last year December 2021.   He is not paying her child support, since he told Peggy that he will give her life hell.    In the past, my older sister and I have been telling my sister, Peggy to save up money and not order in so much, we told her this 20 years ago, and she did not listen at all.   Last year Peggy was let go from her job from Covid, and she depleted her account and did not really look for a job nor did she get a COVID vaccine since she is against it.   She thought she will die from the vaccine.  In any case, when she had her job offer last year late October 2022, her company asked her to get the COVID Shot.  She did finally get it, and she is ok.   I am a bit upset that she is so stubborn and will not listen to us when we told her to get a job as soon as possible, she took her time a rest for a year and 3 months and depleted her savings.    

I can't wait till next year to come around so we can sell the house, and allocate the amount to each of us so we can do our own things.    I know that I am not the only one in the website having issues with their siblings.   I just needed to vent and get out my frustration.      I took a day off today to relax so I can gather my thoughts.   

Thank you for everyone's support.   I am smoke for this long and continue to wish I stay smoke free 'A Day at a Time."

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I have been smoking since I was in my twenties, and I have been sobered for 23 years. I quitted smoking for over a year until last October 2021, due to my boss has pile on a lot of work my way, I have developed major anxiety and panic attack. Ultimately, I had to quit my job to save my own life. I went to my primary care physician, and my blood pressure was very high. I had to make a choice to quit my job to save my own life. One of my colleagues told me that I was the backbone of the department, and he really appreciated my hard work. I was working as a Commercial Loan Administrator, and I have to extract certain information from the legal agreements and input in the Loan IQ system. The management does not care about the people working in the Operation Department. Majority of my colleagues told me that I am the most responsive and knowledgeable person in the department. I felt very angry that they put so much work on my plate and forced me to quit my job. I was no longer happy working in my job. That caused me to pick up smoking again, and I know it is not good for my health. Smoking only exacerbate my anxiety. I am praying and hoping that this website will help me quit smoking for good. I should not use smoking as a coping mechanism. I believe this is not a coincidence, and it happened for a reason which I do not have a clue right now, but I believe that God has a better plan for me going forward, and this is the time for me to do some soul searching and taking care of my body. I believe as time goes by; I will find a more suitable job that is not that stressful, and I do not have to work crazy hours. I will keep my fingers crossed.