I really have no idea as to what I am doing. I am 28 years old, soon to be 29, and have been smoking regularly since I was 11 years old. I know, I know..ELEVEN?!?! My mom and dad owned a restaurant in a small town here in Ohio, that sold cigarettes too. Haha, I feel so old now.
I have never wanted to quit smoking. I never had the desire to. I always thought it was my choice if I smoked, I know the risks involved. I really didn't care.
It is extremely sad to say that I am not quitting to improve my health, or to run that extra mile. I wish I could say that, but, the reality of it is, Ohio has raised the taxes on cigarettes, and will again in April.
I paid 7.00 for a pack of cigarettes the other day, and that was it for me. The funny thing about all this is, the same day I paid $7 for a pack of smokes, I bought Pinocchio for my son, and I saw the announcement for becomeanex.org. So, here I am.
I am bi-polar, have generalized anxiety disorder. Whenever I get panicky...I light up. Whenever I feel an extreme mood change come on..I light up.
I am sure there are other members out there that will sympathize and empathize with me on this next bout of info. I am also a recovering addict. I have been clean for almost 7 years. I pride myself in that fact, but like a lot of addicts, I have clutched to my cigarettes and my Mountain Dew as a safety harness. So, in my mind, I think it will be that much more difficult to quit because although I have been clean for so long, I am still an addict, and I still get those cravings to do the horrible things I have done before, and cigarettes get me through that.
I haven't seen all of the groups yet, I don't know if there is a group for people like me, and if not, maybe I should start one.
Well, I just wanted to introduce myself, and shed some light on my approach to the whole nicotine-free thing.
I am looking forward to seeing how this site will help me, and looking forward to the friendships and support I will encounter.
-Bobbie
