My last blog post, I typed it all out yesterday. Halfway through it I went to the store and I left the post up so I wouldn't lose it all. Well the power had flickered and the page had expired, and it wouldn't let me copy and paste or anything, so I just closed the whole page. This morning, I come on to write a new post, and everything I typed yesterday was still there, so I published it.
Anyway, I am on day 7 now. I'm still not sure how long I am going to stay quit. At this point I am just going to wing it. I frequent another quit site, and I feel like I can be more real here. It seems to be less personal, unless you are posting on someone else's page or whatever. More freedom of opinion, as opposed to lying to ones self. It sort of annoys me over there. So I don't go there as much as I did.
I understand the need to see smoking for what it is ( filthy, disgusting, unhealthy, etc), but those people are not honest with themselves. I do believe that the addiction is largely psychological, but I also know that there is a definite physical component there. It's documented. Smoking affects seratonin. Therefore, when a smoker, or ex-smoker says he liked smoking, or liked to smoke, he wasn't lying and delusional. No, most smokers do not like the act of smoking. Most of them cannot stand that they are inhaling all of those chemicals, they don't like willingly killing themselves. BUT, they do like the effect smoking has, because it affects the feel good hormone in their brain!
So, when you read up on the psychological addiction to smoking, don't buy into the apparent hidden message that there is no physical addiction. Or that there's no possible way a smoker could actually like smoking, because that's just bull. I'm sorry. Just like any addiction, if people didn't physically LIKE some aspect of it, they wouldn't do it. It wouldn't be so hard for some people to quit. Ironically, in my current quit, I'm backwards from my previous attempts. Usually, I have the physical addiction covered with meds, and then I am left b****ing because I didn't plan on the psychological aspect.
This time around, I've mastered the psychology of it, but the physical side of it was left wide open. Mentally I didn't want to smoke....It's the physical addiction that's been hardest this time around.
